The wide blanket that covers it all,
I have a heart for you.
The dream has always been
to ride the skin that is your game,
The sad markings thrown away.
In any climate I make a vow:
I will not change my quest for you,
Your lullabies that bring on sleep.
I leave my gift at your doorstep.
I have no more appetite for loss.
This pales before your promises,
The great defeat of unhappiness
That trails along a cool white sheet
With whispers down an avenue.
Between your pear-like breasts
I lay my head
I lay aside my childish scorn
In you I will be torn
Outside of time and flesh,
An exquisite Nothingness.
You are always there
In the glare and in the dream.
From your constant womb of white
The perfect crown of a perfect life
You beckon to watery steps
With an air of indifference,
Or down into the arms of earth
Where we relinquish our flimsy truths
Of the noises that were us
The stances and the spasms spent
on happenstance.
You open your legs to this.
It is your fragrance that overcomes
my weariness.
In the dream I have seen
Your lipstick is reminiscent:
The smile.
I am afraid.
Outside of myself I watch myself
In my drugged state
Tethered to another life,
A weaker life,
I shudder.
You fade, removed page by page.
Over oceans of time,
You disappear.
I am clear
And alone.
It is another day:
I watch the sun rise.